;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Thursday, March 08, 2007

): i think im on my verge
my worries are so minor
but i can forsee myself collapsing reall soon
bio test was LSDNFLASDCLKASMDLKFJPIFHBOGJHFD
D: I felt so lost. i started out alright, but towards the middle of the test, for no reason my tummy was aching! the pain was making me lose concentration, and not to mention i had no idea what the question was asking at all! ): whats wrong with me! i was contemplating on whteher i shld go to the washroom or cont with my paper. i decided to remain, but it dint ake me feel any better.
i dint do the whole essay i wrote one sentence. i even had time to count how many marks i left black and i counted 15. what the hell im super pissed and dissapointed with myself.
all these just made me wonder again if i made the right choice in choosing bcme, cause i know for sure i wouldn wnat to have a future thats related to sci ):
I HATE CHOICES ):
and my parents were lecturing me that day cause they refuse to let me study what i want. they insist i shld be a pediatrician.
i seriously dont know what im doing at this point of my life.
maybe im just wasting my time away..

yangyan just left our class
i really wished she could have stayed
then things woldn be that diffrent):
no more laughing at her! rah
even sci labs feel so weird without her arnd..
but as long as shes happy where she is,
we'll all be happy for her too!:D
hmm i shall talk aout her bdae (:
we went kbox haha my first time there
got damn high we kept singing the same few songs ovver and over again!
before meeting up with the rest yijing clara and i went to far east to get her roses
stupid yijing says she want roses, but kerara and i wanted sunflowers cause it looks so much happier! and roses look damn emo ( so yijing) but we still got her roses in the end.
hah we were peeling out thorns with our fingers cause there wasnt enough scissors
alot pple came over and say our flowers very nice one more korean woman also say our basket very nice! hahah
i think we must have looked quite poor ting so a woman came over to help us cut thorns:D
she helped us wrap the flowers and everything!
shes damn nice (: (: (:
wanted to give her a lolli but no link so decided not to
went to amk to eat nice laksa super nice!
haha the bus ride on the way there was super amusing
i think we were talking kinda loud :S
then this man bluetooth me this file and the file name was caled " SHUTUP"
i was damn amused
tried opening the file but its not recognised so cannot open
the guy quite rude lah but i still think its quite funny :D

okay! im contraditing myself lah!
i know i shld be studying but here i am, thinking about what i sld blog about
-_______- my chem tut is right beside me but i have no motivation to touch it at all!
i just wnaa sleeeeeeep
anw jiayou huangcheng pple! :D

far far away

;; right from the beginning